Feeling a little bit miserable
Hm, what even is the right thing to do? I’ve been wanting to change my habits of procrastination but for some reason I still cling to it. I still cling to the short term-ed good feeling from the avoidance. That sense of RELIEF you still have a couple of days and you can still be able to continue watching your favorite TV series, not having to spend a buttload of energy off in the day. It feels like straight up addiction at this point. I mean, yes it sounds fair that I need time to change my habits because I’ve been having this horrible habit for a lot of years (and its been progressively worsening) it has only been a couple of months since I’ve been reading my self help books anyway, I have to give myself a break right? I dont know. What if, you know, I just apparently still dont know how to change my habits? Why am I still clinging to this habit? There is something I’m doing wrong.. Or maybe you just never gonna get over procrastination, its just how normal people behave? Hmm with tha...